Bitter to SWEET

alright so I finally have enough time to type a blog cause I've been so busy with soccer. well I was sick the week before Thanksgiving and I missed some soccer and a game so as soon as I could play I went to soccer practice the week of Thanksgiving holidays. We had a game the next day. I was really excited because I had missed soccer sooooo much. The night of the game I didn't have a white jersey because he had given them out the game I missed because I was sick. No big deal I'll just get one from coach. Well after about 5 runs back and forth from the field to his room at the school he realized that the jerseys were in his bag right beside him the whole time. So I was like "haha alright well I still need a jersey." well he had no white jerseys. So he said don't worry about I'll get you in after half time. I'm all cool so instead of just chillin on the bench I decided to do stats and when he gave me the stat board he told me "don't worry I'll get you in." I was fine well that game went by and I did NOT play. I talk to my parents and they told me because I was sick he probable didn't play me. I was upset but I eventually got over it. so I went to practice everyday tried my best because we have to "earn" our spot on varsity.(just to let you know he plays girls who haven't come to practice but MAYBE once or twice a week and play the whole game) so we had a game yesterday, Monday the 4th, he said on Friday's practice that it was a varsity game and he wasn't going to be able to play everyone he said that if we didn't know if we were JV or Varsity ask him so I did. He told me I was JV but because I had come to practice I WOULD play. So Monday rolls around Im excited because I haven't played a game since October. (*NOTE: its December*) so the game is in coventon about 2 and a half HOURS away. I dressed out ready to play. its FREEZING COLD!!!! I didn't start which I assumed because I'm not varsity. But I still expected to play. So because I didn't start I did stats again. No Problem... so half time came and went then someone asked "how much time left? 10 mins." girls who came out were dressing and getting all of their clothes together because they weren't going back in. So my parents came to a game 2 and a half hours away just to watch me take stats. I talk to my parents because they wanted to know what happened and why I didn't play? I said "he didn't play me and started to cry". : ( I got over it but I was still hurt. So I really strongly dislike my coach right now because he has proven to me that not once but twice has he not kept his word. AGH!!!! when my dad picked me up from school today he reminded me that as Christians we have a unique ability to forgive and that I need to let God have control. So even though I have been at practice everyday and played my little heart out ( LOL ) he doesn't play me. Its ok though because God has control and what happens happens I'm not gonna let it get me down. So thanks Dad (even though he will probably never read this) I LOVE MY DAD!!!! What would I do without him? Well I hope you have a great day!